“WHO YOU CALLING A FISH…”

YOU TALKING TO ME?

welcome to new york city!  we’ve been here since the tenth.  it took me a good day and a half to acclimate.  that really hasn’t happened for me since early sobriety [almost five years ago].  i found myself ready and willing to “go out there,” as in leave the hotel room, for very short stints the first few days.  NYC has always overwhelmed me…AND i’ve come to know that is just part of the deal in visiting.

the feeling for me is too many fish in too small a pond.  too many FAST fish period.  santa fe is much more my pace.  it’s good to know what works AND also allow for the overwhelm.  i’ve learned to be much more gentle with myself.  getting to recovery meetings here has helped tremendously.  somehow getting to a meeting and sitting with real people talking about real life personalizes it all for me.   also, finally reaching out to friends old and new has been HUGE too.  i’m actually seeing people.  it’s only taken me four plus years.  “it takes what it takes and time takes time,” is a mix of some of the wonderful sayings that i’ve picked up along the way.  here’s to working through whatever is “up” to get to the other side!

peace + love + laughter + healing,    -kathleen.

1 Comment

  1. NicoleApril 1, 2011 at 7:58 pm 

    Thanks for reminding me of how I was for nearly 3 decades. Just For Today I can look anyone in the eye and remind myself that I am no better or less than them. I may not have letters after my name or a ‘real’ job. We are all equal beings on this planet, sharing a very large home.

    Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming-Finding Nemo

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