i’m writing this from a beautiful suite at the st. regis in san francisco. just five blocks away is a facility where i went to an NA meeting today. what a difference five blocks can make! the facility was a senior citizen center and they were feeding their homeless community free lunch. the NA meeting was smack dab in the middle of traffic, so to speak. we were in a tiny room between the office and the cafeteria. throughout our hour long meeting we had about ten different people walking from one room to the next. interesting to say the least. i got to see my growth in that i didn’t mind it at all. we were all there to be “fed” on some level.
i am reminded that EVERYTHING exists all at once. we simply are choosing to create our realities with the thoughts we think. in the past i would have easily have had this thought process…”WHAT THE HELL KIND OF ANONYMITY IS THIS? THIS PLACE ISN’T SAFE! I’M OUTTA HERE. FUCK RECOVERY!” i would have angrily thought myself into a relapse. i’ve sat through my fair share of loud and obnoxious meetings. i’ve sat through a few where it was just me, as the “secretary,” waiting to see if anyone else showed up. i’m grateful for all the sitting and all the chairs and all the rooms and all the cities around the world where people are doing some of the hardest and most sacred work of all. here’s to everyone everywhere who’s doing the work to create a better day for themselves one hour at a time! i have nothing but love for you all!
peace + love + laughter + healing, -kathleen.